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They are literal segregation.

They have been shaped by the same racist, eugenicist, and divide-the-workers goals.

Supporting these policies doesn’t make you “reasonable.” Opposing these policies doesn’t make us “unreasonable.”

Supporters of anti-immigration policies sometimes claim that “every country has a right to restrict immigration.”

Rights are supposed to protect *people* from arbitrary power, not to justify attacking people with arbitrary power.

One could say that “every government has the might to restrict immigration,” but might does not make right.
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I have polare sunglasses, over my regular glasses, but they aren’t enough.

Flashing lights such as turn signals and other safetyweapons blind me, disorient me, unbalance me, and sometimes trigger my migraines and vomiting. Fortunately I don’t get seizures.

Flashing lights from two or more directions, such as turn signals at intersections, often blind me, disorient me, and unbalance me into stumbling into the street.

I try to avoid crossing at busy intersections, but I still have a lot of trouble, and I have been hit by a car [last June] while crossing at a crosswalk between intersections.
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When police fire tear gas and concussion grenades at protesters, that doesn’t mean the protesters were or are committing violence. It means the police are committing violence.

I wasn’t able to participate in today’s protests, due to my disabilities, but while peacefully protesting years ago, police attacked the group I was with, and someone knocked me to the ground, and police repeatedly sprayed pain into my eyes and mouth. Judging by photos of the beating, and bruises afterwards, they also beat me with an improvised club. I have severe asthma, and I could have died if it had gone down my throat instead of my esophagus. I don’t have epilepsy, but I had some kind of seizure due to the pain.

Blaming protesters is victim-blaming. Bullying survivors to try to figure out what we must have done to deserve the violence can be triggering for some of us with ptsd from this violence. It’s not right, factually or morally.


Jan. 20th, 2017 03:41 pm
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I am disabled. I get pain-beaten and strobed.

I am in pain, and sometimes in danger, from abled policies which require pain-beaters and strobes.

I am also autistic and trans. I got bullied and bashed unconscious as a kid, and I learned to hate myself for it.

I am a gamer too. Sometimes I play and design games to explore history. Sometimes I play and design games to escape this situation, though and that’s okay.

I want to find games that won’t strobe me, won’t trigger my migraines, and will allow me to play with my sensory and coordination issues. Most tabletop games work for me, but relatively few computer games do.

I also sometimes want to find games that allow more of us to escape the nasty situations some of us face, though, too. Even if only for a while. I don’t want to get stuck with games which *support* racism, sexism, ableism, etc., so I try to avoid games when the publishers complain about “SJW” “censorship,” or of course, if they support racism, sexism, ableism, etc.

P.S. And I've been thinking about how to bring escapist social justice into a semi-historical setting. How about a Roman-age setting, in Scythia east of Dacia, where Spartacus's rebels have settled after escaping from Italia, with Amazons from the east trading horses, Gutones from the northwest trading amber, and so on?
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Chelsea Manning should never have been imprisoned, and the United States government should never have invaded Iraq, but the commutation may well save her life.
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Between struggling with my illness, and with the beatings and strobings, I've been working on a board-and-counters wargame of parts of the Ukrainian Civil Wars of 1917-1921.

The first set of scenarios focus on the conflict between the Directory, the Bolsheviks, and the Whites, after the fall of the Hetmanate. These take place between December 1918 and February 1919. The second set of scenarios focus on the conflict between the Makhnovists and Whites, with the Bolsheviks returning to southern Ukraine at the end. These take place between September 1919 and January 1920. There are 2-player and 3-player scenarios.

I could use more playtesters. With the playtest version, you would need to print out the maps and double-sided counters, and mount the double-sided counters on cardboard. With the final version, that won't be an issue. If you are interested in playtesting, please contact me.

176 Playing Pieces

P.S. From my last playtest of "Fall of the Directory:"

This time, the Directory held on in the Kyiv-Chernihiv area, after defeating Zelenyist forces there.
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For several reasons, such as

* My ongoing struggles with chronic illness

* My past ignorance of transition

* Many people losing access to healthcare if Republican plans go through

I think I’m going to need to know more about medicine to take care of myself, and I don’t think I’m alone in this need.

For other reasons, such as

* Side effects of drugs and supplements

* Persistence of abusive treatments for queer and autistic kids

* Outbreaks of disease in under-vaccinated areas

* Growth of the police state and prison state with the drug war

I think we'd mostly be better off if we knew more about medicine.

What are good, cheap, accessible starting points?
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I have been sick for two days with migraines and vomiting after getting strobed. Many people can have seizures from getting strobed.

P.S. I keep getting strobed.

Turn signals, unsafety signals, and hazardous lights all blind me, disorient me, sometimes hit me with migraines, and sometimes cause me to stumble into the street.

Emergency lights blind me, disorient me, inevitably hit me with migraines, cause me to lose my balance, and leave me sick and in agony for days afterwards.

P.P.S. Someone is firing a fast strobe out by the road right now. I know that those of us with strobe sensitivities aren’t allowed to drive on abled people’s roads, but we still have to walk down abled people’s roads, cross abled people’s roads, etc. I am safe here and I hope no one gets injured or killed this time.
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I won't be able to participate in any protests, let alone resistance, unless my health improves. But I'm planning to read a few more works on effective nonviolent resistance:

* Why Civil Resistance Works, by Erica Chenoweth & Maria J. Stephan,

* Building a Movement to End the New Jim Crow, by Daniel Hunter,

* On the Salt March, by Thomas Weber.

And to re-read a few works I'd read for earlier projects, such as:

* Some of the public records from the Seattle Accountability and Review Committee.

* The Battle in Seattle, by Janet Thomas.

* Netwar in the Emerald City, by Paul de Armond.

Before my illness, I prepared a transcript of the first several hours of the police radio recordings which were among those public records. I don't have a suitable place to post the public records and the transcripts, but if I did, other people might be able to use them.
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She is currently being held in solitairy confinement in a men's prison. This is not good. She could be subjected to worse abuse, and stripped of access to medical care, in the new regime: Trump supports torture, and Pence opposes trans rights. Commutation to time served could save her life.

Please, sign her petition for commutation, and share her petition with your friends.
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I am not a lawyer, but I can recognize this.

The First Amendment:

“Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble (sic), and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.”

A description of part of the “First Amendment Defense Act:”

“First, the bill applies to any corporation, organization, or person who “believes or acts in accordance with a religious belief or moral conviction that marriage is or should be recognized as the union of one man and one woman, or that sexual relations are properly reserved to such a marriage.””

If Congress makes a law creating special privileges for certain religions and certain religious doctrines, that is an establishment of religion, and would violate the 1st Amendment. (Estate of Caldor v. Thornton struck down a far less selective law.)

And if Congress makes a law intended to stigmatize certain minorities, and promote discrimination against us, that can violate the 14th Amendment too. (Romer v. Evans.)

“In Everson v. Board of Education (330 U.S., 1947) the Supreme Court stated in its majority opinion: “The ‘establishment of religion’ clause of the First Amendment means at least this: Neither a state nor the Federal Government can set up a church. Neither can pass laws which aid one religion, aid all religions, or prefer one religion over another. Neither can force nor influence a person to go to or to remain away from church against his will or force him to profess a belief or disbelief in any religion. No person can be punished for entertaining or professing religious beliefs or disbeliefs, for church attendance or non-attendance. No tax in any amount, large or small, can be levied to support any religious activities or institutions, whatever they may be called, or whatever from they may adopt to teach or practice religion. Neither a state nor the Federal Government can, openly or secretly, participate in the affairs of any religious organizations or groups and vice versa. In the words of Jefferson, the clause against establishment of religion by law was intended to erect ‘a wall of separation between Church and State.’””

P.S. This is a district court ruling against a similar state-level law. Almost all of the same constitutional objections apply:
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I had been a Christian. I can’t anymore.

First, too many American voters, and a majority of white and male American voters just voted for white supremacism, rape culture, conversion ‘therapy’, and the rest of the Trump campaign. So it’s a lot harder to trust people. And it’s a lot harder to assume people would reject such evils, unless I know they have rejected them.

Second, the extant gospels don’t really show Iesus repudiating rape culture. It’s likely that he did, and that his comments have been lost in the composition of the gospels. It’s possible that his comments have influenced the Pauline epistles. But it’s not certain enough. And it’s never clearly rejected in his comments about marriage, and divorce, and to the womon in the scene inserted in John. I can’t know that Iesus did reject that evil.

And without knowing that, I can’t trust Iesus enough to be a Christian.
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I am disabled and I get beaten up several times each week. I have sound sensitivities, hyperacusis, and strobe sensitivities, and the widespread use of backup beepers, sirens, strobe lights, turn signals, etc. can incapacitate and endanger me. Current government policies treat those of us with similar disabilities as acceptable collateral damage, and Trump's policies won't improve things, and his encouragement of rape culture and neo-Nazism will add new dangers to the existing dangers. I got especially badly strobed before dawn one thursday last month, and was still in agony and vomiting the next saturday.

I have to wear ear plugs, ear protectors, and special sunglasses to go outside. I can't cross the street at busy intersections, due to all the turn signals, and can't use the phones, due to the fact that they're phones. I don't have access to regular work, or to the bus system, or to the poison control system, or other things abled people might take for granted.

I used to reject voting as violence. But the status quo is violence, and worsening it is violence, and voting to pressure politicians to stop hurting us isn't comparable violence. (Obviously voting to pressure politicians to continue hurting us is violence and those voters, like those politicians, have blood on their hands.)
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If Trump wins, he will embolden them, he may start a nuclear war, and he will stop attempts to slow global warming.

If he loses, another like him could win.

I'm no fan of Clinton, or Stein, or Johnson, but I'm scared of Trump and Pence.
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When you get beaten up, and people hassle you for screaming in pain and sometimes anger when you get beaten up.
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A lot of people believe, first, that disability is always a problem with disabled people, and never in any way a oroblem with ableist society.

A lot of people believe, second, that if we just put our minds to it, we can overcome anything.

And that extends to holding that, first, it’s our responsibility to accommodate ourselves to all the accessibility barriers they pretend don’t exist, and all the violence they pretend doesn’t occur, and also, to all the slurs.

According to the New York Times and the Harriet Tubman Collective, 60% to 80% of the people killed by police were disabled:

And that's the tip of the iceberg of ableist policy.

Now, I have sensory processing issues. I can’t accommodate myself to backup beepers or strobe lights. I got very badly strobed before dawn on thursday, and was still in pain and vomiting saturday. I might be able to work on my balance to accommodate myself to the occasional car horn or turn signal, but still not to the busy intersections they expect me to cross at. If I’m hit by flashing lights, I will be blinded by them, and if I’m hit by flashing lights from several directions, I will lose my balance - and sometimes stumble into the street.

So if I’m going to function or even survive, other people have to stop hitting me so often.

I am at their mercy. And if they decide that ableism is a-okay, and that beating people up is a-okay, I am not okay; I will probably still be beaten again and again, and hit by cars once or twice or three times more, and eventually killed.

So that’s why the slurs hurt so much.
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“Okay, so where should I begin? I’ve had a lot of trouble with things going haywire because I'd missed something at the beginning."

"Just start writing. You'll figure it out."

*Things go haywire. Maybe new text pops up in a font I don't use. Maybe a numbered list starts getting special formatting, gets broken in two, and gets renumbered as two lists. Maybe every other paragraph gets bolded. Maybe the computer just freezes or crashes. Admittedly most of these happened after someone asked me to work on a Word document that they'd formatted.*

"Okay, what can I do to keep this from going wrong?"

"You're supposed to set document fonts in preferences/use styles/use another word processor because this one is broken and isn't supported any more/etc. What do you mean you've made this whole document without these basic steps?"

"Now, my strobe sensitivity is getting worse. Is there any way to stop the blinking cursor?"

"We rely on system settings/sorry os x doesn't have that setting/there is this one hack/sorry LibreOffice doesn't respond to that hack."

"I guess I'll have to find another word processor which does respond. But I'll ask around first. I’ve had a lot of trouble with things going haywire because I'd missed something at the beginning."

"Just start writing. You'll figure it out."

*Things go haywire again.*

"Where's reload? This thing doesn't have any reload? or revert? I'll have to quit and restart from the old version."

*Word processor saves over old version as I quit.*


(Yes, I currently use a mac. I used to use a Linux machine, but with my disabilities, hardware and driver accessibility were hit-and-miss and mostly miss.)
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I got temp-banned a couple years ago for asking some accessibility questions.

I got banned again today for objecting to an ableist slur.

These have two things in common:

Both times, I objected to ableism.

And both times, after my post disappeared, I assumed it was just another glitch, and I reposted.

They have a formal rule against reposting deleted posts. But computers and internet connections glitch all the time, which is why we are all encouraged to save before posting, in case we have to repost. Everyone reposts. So banning people for reposting doesn’t make any sense, and isn’t believable. They didn’t bother to tell me that they’d deliberately deleted the post, or why, so I assumed it was just another glitch and I reposted. But banning people for objecting to ableism, and covering it with bullshit about banning for reposting is quite believable.
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* I seem to be unusually sensitive to low-level exposure to fumes, salicylates, and so on. I can’t take most meds more than a couple days, at minimum doses, without getting sick, whether they’re processed through the liver or excreted through the kidneys. I can’t be around tobacco smoke, lysol, pine-sol, perfume, whatever some poisoner used outside my apartment, etc. without getting sick.

* I can get nasty migraines after salicylate exposure, after fructose/sucrose exposure, after any of the above gas exposures, after exercise, and of course after the pain-beatings.

Some hypotheses to consider:

* Salicylate intolerance and/or salicylate poisoning could explain my hyperacusis and strobe-induced vertigo. Cutting down on salicylates has helped, but it’s hard, and so far it hasn’t been enough.

* Could salicylates and/or toxins stored in body fat, and release during aerobic exercise, explain my post-exertional migraines?

Some puzzles:

* Can anything explain my unusual sensitivities to so many foods, fumes, medicines, and so on?


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