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PAIN CAN HURT

PAINS CAN HURT

Because a lot of the medical system relies on pain calls, and current accessibility standards don’t require accessible alternatives to pain calls, I can’t just disconnect the pains and avoid the pain calls.

So several times each day I get hit with painful wringers, I have to pick up the pain, I get hit with painful loud beeping or shouting on the pain, and it turns out they’re pain-bombarding about auto insurance or something else I don’t have and can’t use withn my disabilities.

I’m still in a lot of pain from that.

Fortunately, I don’t seem to have anything broken, or to have concussions, and only seem to have moderate loss of motion in my good arm.

I was crossing the street on my way home, and instead went to the clinic and by a nearby bookstore before going home.

I am able to walk despite my injuries and the pain from my injuries. But I had to stop partway ‘cause of someone’s car alarm and the pain from their car alarm.

Why do neurotypicals make things so loud???

For me, the injuries seem to be about as painful as 60 to 65 decibels. For those of you wanting to understand severe hyperacusis, 60 to 65 decibels can be about as painful as the injuries from getting hit by a car at low speed.

I have severe sensory processing issues, including severe hyperacusis.

I am unable to support myself or to move elsewhere, due to my sensory issues, the beatings, and other health issues.

I am unable to go anywhere near construction, due to my hyperacusis. Backup beepers are an absolute agony. When I am hit by backup beepers, I can’t do anything but curl up, scream in pain, and hope to die. I already wear ear plugs and ear protectors to help with all the other noises, but they aren’t nearly enough protection against backup beepers.

I just recieved notice of a construction project a couple blocks away. It may begin as early as February 19th.

I don’t think I’ll be able to get away.

I don’t think I’ll be able to survive the noise bombardment.

Logically, I should kill myself before the noise bombardment, and spare myself the agony.

P.S. For whatever reason, the planned construction never took place. I've had a lot of other trouble, but not this.

I want some other option.

I've emailed the audiologist. I don't know what else I can do.

I've tried this over the past several days. It means I can handle a bit more noise bombardment a bit longer. It doesn't mean I can deal with incapacitating noise painhammers though.

I basically wear moldable silicone ear plugs, then ear buds playing pink noise over them, then ear protectors over the combination. It is somewhat uncomfortable and it does take a while to set up. I use the pink noise to help mask noise and to help keep my brain from amplifying everything. I wear the ear buds over the ear plugs, first, because I still need the plugs for protection, and second, because buds are frakking uncomfortable. Yes, the wires for the buds break the seal of the protectors, but so do the frames for my glasses and the position of my ears.

Background:

I have hyperacusis. I am often incapacitated by loud noises especially painhammers/backup beepers. I have ear protectors and ear plugs, but they aren’t enough. I explained that I have been hit by painhammers/backup beepers while crossing the street, and been forced to curl up in excruciating pain.

So somone replied: http://bbs.boingboing.net/t/how-to-become-gluten-intolerant/53736/59?u=marjae

On the other hand, if the fetal-position-in-the-middle-of-the-street risk is that significant, I also think you are an equally significant risk to both yourself and others if you are allowed to be out in public.

They seem to imply that, they think because abled people keep hurting me, they think abled people should lock me up.